Excuse the absence ...

Life has been a bit busy lately ... Dr. appointments ... social obligations... work .... not to mention all I want to do is hibernate, so I have turned into a big time grouch as of late. I think the long weekend in Miami really threw me for a loop because all I can now think about is either relocating to a warm beach environment or making a vacation plan for late March/early April that involves solely lying on the beach, drinking smoothies and doing nothing else. I don't know how people really enjoy their pregnancies, especially people living in the Northeastern part of the US. I know I always told myself this blog would be 100% dedicated to our house and the renovation process... however, since not a lot is going on there right now, I thought we could discuss pregnancy and all her glory ...

For the most part, I have been sailing through my pregnancy ... no morning sickness, no real tiredness that everyone talks about during the 1st trimester and I have been fortunate enough to stay on the smaller side of the scale up to this point. Some of the not so nice things happening...... my chest outgrowing all of my clothes at a pretty rapid rate (if you know me, you know how I feel about large chests... ), I no longer fit into any of my work clothes and have you seen the stuff out there for pregnant peeps? The only designs worth checking out are from Hatch and who can afford them? I certainly don't want to put my family in the poor house for a dress or two. The designers out there should be ashamed of themselves!!!!! Who, in their early 30's, wants to look like a 60 year old? Certainly not I! Dressing myself for the next 19 weeks should be a very interesting challenge. That pregnancy glow you are supposed to have, YEAH RIGHT! I maybe had a glow after I got back from Florida due to my sunkissed skin ... now I just look swollen and pale as a ghost. Not a good look for someone increasing in size .... let's just put that out there. I was really hoping my massage yesterday would have given me a brighter outlook on life ... and while it made me giddy for a couple hours and look less pale than usual, it just didn't hold the miracle of glowiness and happiness that I had hoped for ... *sigh. It was an awesome massage, don't get me wrong .... I felt really relaxed afterwards and thinner after all my knots were worked out, but just the thought of work on Monday and my lack of awesome wardrobe made me grouchy all over again.

I really am hoping my marriage makes it out of this pregnancy alive haha. If I were Magnus I would run and hide everytime I entered the room ;) 

As much as I complain, I feel unbelievably thankful that I got pregnant as fast as I did, I have been feeling really good and this babe is as healthy as one can be, but I think people should be more upfront about the not so thrilling thoughts that one goes through during a pregnancy ... why all the lies ladies? We should be telling eachother, straight-up, how it really feels to go through these 10 months of nothing but changes to our bodies/hormones/emotions.

I'm hoping to not only fit in more UpstateHaven postings, but also some REAL pregnancy thoughts throughout my next 19 weeks. Here's hoping I find the key to improving my outlook and my mood in general. Maybe a vacation is really the only ticket!